Negative Life: Rating Rant.

Midlife Crisis Warning!

Have you ever felt like you were cursed by God because of the Sins of the Fathers who were pedophiles? My own father wasn't in the usual sense of the word. But, because the thoughts were in his head, Biblically speaking, he was. Legally speaking, he wasn't. He never ever touched me. My own Grandfather (Mom's side) murdered before committing suicide. My life has been pure hell.

Yes, I am going through my mid-life crisis. I told myself I must wait until I reached the ripe old age of 50. However, I'm 48 and haven't gotten a life yet. Every time I am bubbly and look like someone you would want to meet, some self-centered bloody arse asks me out and then rejects me on my food allergies. Everyone I know has married, had KIDS, have REAL jobs, and has a successful life with LOVING people in it. What do I get? BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP,  BECAUSE YOU CAN'T WORSHIP ME! Okay, so I reject the fools because I refuse to be desperate. I try to be positive, have hope and have a bubbly life.

The result: Emotional Suicide, don't give a damn if the world dies in hell. I still care about people, but have started not caring about anyone and don't want to have anything to do with anyone. Why? Because MY GOD had the bloody right to allow self-centered bloody arses to kill me emotionally without giving one BLEEP about ME being beyond what I can take.

Results: Just another brick in the wall....

We don't need no Education
We don't need no sperm control.
Willie controls the stupid masses.
Telling us what to do!
Hey! Willie! You're not my God!
All in all you're just another satanic god.
All in all you're just another satanic god.

We don't need your controlling ways.
We don't need your self-centered ways.
I don't need your interest in me,
dictating my life away.
Hey! Fools! God didn't make you god!
All in all you're just another satanic god.
All in all you're just another satanic god.
"Idiot yet again!"
"I'll be killed if I don't eat my chicken!
How can I live if I don't eat my chicken?"
"You! God commanded you to eat Chicows! Eat Chicows!"

So what is the background story?
Realizing that I fail at EVERYTHING I attempt, and finding that I can't even manage the most simplist things in life...being a wife. I can't even get a mate, friends, kids, or anything that you take for granted because I have Fetal Alcohol Syndrome and the WRONG food allergies! I am blatantly discriminated against because I am NOT like you! Also, my interest line up with England's music, sports, etc. Americans tend to HATE anything foreign.