God Bless Lucrative Non-USA

Have a job? Just wait! You'll lose it overseas!
Want to buy something online with a gift card? Just Wait! It will be denied because the business processing bank is overseas.
Want to buy software online with a gift card? Just Wait! You can't even use it through PayPal because the Gift Card issuing bank will STILL deny it because they deny PayPal because the business you are really purchasing from...is still OVERSEAS!

And, you wonder why you can't find work? My biggest beef about all of this is I want to move to England so badly that it hurts. My fave sports and music is overseas. My fave cheese is overseas. Everything I love...architecture, nature, accents...is overseas. And No, I'm not talking about quaint English cottages. They can keep those, thank you very much. I love English Tudor. I lived in a faux English Tudor as a child and always loved it.

I just feel like I live in a prison where you are only allowed to buy crappy stuff that doesn't give tuppence about your likes, allergies or interest. Crappy really only applies to Walmart cheap junk and almost ALL food. That is because the Foolish Drug Arses (FDA) does not WANT you to know what is in your food. They'd rather you died already like a good little bloody arse. Sorry, but I refuse to die.

My other issue is that I need a root canal and NO ONE can pay for it. Gov't doesn't give tuppence again whether I live or die. They don't give Dental coverage and those bastards in office is trying to reverse Obama Care - which admittedly, is bad when they require you to pay money you don't have. Let's face it, medical is not cheap. And, it doesn't bring the cost down where we can afford it. However, for those who want it, I say they should be allowed to get it.

And, my family? My dad doesn't want to pay for it and insist that his friends always got their dental care for free and that I can too. His friends kept going into nursing homes where dental IS free as far as immediate out of pocket is concerned, but is NOT free in the end, because you are just paying the Nursing Home bill which is high. They take as much as they can get out of you.

Also, MA - Medical Assistance. That pays too. However, because I am on disability, I get Medicrap which is not the same thing, and won't pay. I can't get MA. I do not qualify because I DO have medical.

Lastly, there is this program out where I live (forget the name), but in short if you are on disability and FIND a part time job, you might get some dental coverage but not necessarily. It would be through Minnesota Care. The problem is that if you make too much on disability, then you don't qualify for the program. If you don't have a part time job, you don't qualify. And, if you make too much money between disability AND the part time job, you don't qualify. I didn't qualify before because I made too much money on disability. I was the bloody arse who bent over backwards too stay OFF of disability and work for as long as I could. It would have been cheaper for me to simply stop working a few years sooner. No Thanks!

And, let's say you qualify for the program. Then what? NO dental office wants you because the government refuses to pay the reality check for dental care. Is root canals covered? I don't know. My Social Worker has not called me back and if she is out of town, then I won't ever know. I don't have that much time.

Bottom line is that if I don't get the Root Canal taken care of in a timely manner, then I die. End of story. And, my dad is shelling out $10000 for cremation and a head stone because he was the arse who refused to pay for the root canal in a timely manner. And I WIN because I won't have the stress I am under now and won't have to deal with Mr. Willie Head. Brits: Yes, I am combining terms here that in American English is harmless. My apologies to you because I really do mean the British meaning here.

Truthfully, Europe is in an economic dumps. USA  is in an economic dumps and the only economy that is booming is the bloody rich in India where all the jobs went. And, I will eventually move to England. It just might take an act of God to get me out of England once I arrive. I've never appreciated USA ever since I was a little girl. I've healed from the pain, but never could get England out of my mind. Ever. I tried. I assumed that when I forgave everyone millions of times for everything they do wrong repeatedly, that I would be happy just spending 2 weeks in England every so often on Holiday. No, not true. That was a delusion. England is not perfect, but perfection wasn't what I was after. Yes, taxes are a little higher there then here. It really is comparable to here though. I've checked and it really isn't all that bad. With insurance cost, I was paying close to 30% of my salary to medical and taxes, which is only slightly cheaper then the tax bracket I might get in England. However, my insurance was heavily subsidized by the company I worked for. Had I been working for McDonald's, I would be paying a lot higher price - $300 more, approximately.

USA has given me freedom from tyranny. Bull! I am under tyranny of being part of the not privileged group of people with the "rare" allergies. I am part of the not privileged group of people on disability. I am tyranized, discriminated against, kicked to the curb and despite all of this, I refuse to give up and die. I'll die on my own terms. And, if the root canal kills me, then the prophecy over my head was a lie. I doubt that, so my dad will be forced to pay for the root canal. My mom will probably take me and pay for it.

My sister will help me spend the gift card on her groceries and her gas. I'll get cash to spend elsewhere. I won't get my music from England. I won't get the software program from overseas. I won't get all the things you take for granted. I won't make money off of that software that allows you to create games and possibly, if you are good enough, sell them for money. I won't get off of disability that way. I didn't think it was possible for me to sell my own games I created anyways. I'm not that good. I'll just have to wait a few more months and see what is up then. I believe I'll meet Mr. Right very soon. It might not be this year, but I will...after all my major bills come due.

UPDATE:  MA rules changed so now I have a $500 spenddown that makes me HOMELESS because I can NOT pay my morgage. Fuching Feds and the State do NOT give a damn about what things really cost to do business these days but insist that if they pay 80's prices that the business owners will lower the price. FEDERAL and STATE GOV'T IS A PACK OF SHIESSKOPFS WITH THEIR FUCHING HEADS IN THE SAND! To hell with them! I've been voting them out of office for years!

Baby Lisa's Evidence and Arrogant Police

I have seen way too many documentaries on crimes where by the evidence that was denied the treatment it deserved was largely ignored by arrogant police ONLY to find that many years later, after it was too late to do any justice, that evidence was found to be the KEY to solve the case.

Why are police so stuck in the mud and think they have all the answers? They don't! Every lead, every tip must be taken seriously! It IS their job! I'm not saying all police are this way. I'm only saying that specific police who hold those nose at evidence and disdain that evidence are arrogant. Yes, I know hunches and "I've been on numerous cases and I just know". Well? Guess what? You CAN be wrong for once! You are not God so remember that!

This website that used to "change baby names" changed mysteriously. I am hoping that the British Government is investigating this company and evidence that connects the website with Baby Lisa IS found and forwarded to not only the Police and the FBI working on the case, but also the lawyer of the parents. I just don't trust what is going on. I don't want some fool hiding what was sent as "rubbish" or something they just haven't gotten around to looking at. That has happened way too many times before. I kmow you have millions of leads and only so many hands. However, I think where this credit card is concerned, I think its worth it.

Now the Mother. Why the bloody hell are you drinking when you have a newborn in the house? Are you nucking futs? NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND GETS DRUNK WHEN THEY HAVE INFANT IN HOUSE! IT IS DANGEROUS AND CAN KILL THE KID! And, if you are breastfeeding? Doesn't alcohol get in the breast milk? Especially if you had quit a few to drink?

Maybe teen challenge is in order - for both parents - to get rid of the need for alcohol. It won't bring your daughter home, but it will help prevent future kids from going missing. And, who watched the kid while you were getting drunk? I'm not accusing the parents of taking their own kid. But, I am saying that when you mess with your mind with brain altering drugs, in this case, alcohol, you are bound to inadvertently endanger your child by not being there to protect them, when they needed it most.

Baby monitors are there for a reason. Use them! If you are too drunk to hear the baby monitor, then you are not capable of being a protective mother. You leave your child vulnerable. And, where was the father in all this? How much did HE have to drink? He is just as guilty as she is.

My own background: My mother may have had a drink while pregnant with me. We are not sure. (Update: My dad is very sure she did.) If she did, then her mother did too. If she did not, then my cognitive disorder is plainly genetic. I'm hoping it is genetic. Why? I would hate to know that my life is crap because my mother didn't know any better in 1964. Yes, I'm trying to change all this. However, alcohol is still a very real plausibility. My dad thinks she had a drink. All this is immaterial because my mom's dad drank and murdered his wife and committed suicide. The abuse I suffered was because of this and my mom's PTSD.

What does this have to do with Baby Lisa? Lots. Alcohol is behind my own lack of success in life. Alcohol is behind Baby Lisa going missing. Alcohol has destroyed two lives (and countless more). My life I can change for the better. I am working on this as we speak. What I am doing does not matter. What does matter is that alcohol is the biggest reason why people go missing, people die - and most of them innocent people. Baby Lisa was innocent. She relied on her mother and father for protection. That protection she did not get from her mother or her father.


Are the parents guilty? They are only guilty of not using a baby monitor properly and being too drunk to protect their baby. I seriously doubt that they did something with the baby.

Watered Down Textbooks

A very long time ago, I had the opportunity to study textbooks and their version of History. We all know that the same History is told differently in various countries. It has been long considered the "norm" for these textbooks to be biased towards the opinions of the Country the textbook is being sold too. Thus, you would think that the textbooks being used in American Schools, would be biased towards American Governmental beliefs. Instead, that is not the case where the Muslim countries are concerned. What follows is my own findings. However, the more detailed analysis can be found at the links given below.
These textbooks are instead saying that all Muslims are given Equal rights - both Women and Men. For excellent articles on all that is going with American Textbooks, please read Islam indoctrination in USA Textbooks and Stakelbeck on Terror.

My own findings:
Muslims in America that I have had contact with are very much against Anti-Semitism. Iran, Iraq and other most other Muslim Countries are very much against Christians and Jews. They are also against any faith that they see a threat to keeping their people Muslim. Iran and Iraq do not give Women equal rights. Where ever you see a Woman in a Burka (spelling?), they do not have equal rights. Do you see men wearing Burka's and covering up their faces too?

Women are not allowed to go shopping, go to school or drive unless they are given permission first, from their husband. They are often brutally abused and raped, but not all of them are treated so harshly. Illiteracy runs very high amongst women in Muslim countries. Illiteracy is used to keep them from learning what they are missing. It keeps them depressed and reliant upon their husbands for food, clothes and security.

The Official Koran, as found in Iran and Iraq, has in its pages wording that can only be translated as "Kill the Jews". There is no other way to see this. The version of the Koran, as it is translated into English and sold in America, conveniently leaves out this wording. Just learn the language and get a hold of the official Koran from the Middle East and read it for yourself. I do not speak Arabic or Persian, but have been told this by my brother, who learned it from a scholar.

What does watered down textbooks do for us? It makes us look at other cultures through "Rose coloured glasses".  Yes, they have the right to live how they choose. However, we do not have the rights to lie about how they live. Our children needs to be told the truth so that they can decide for themselves with all the facts in hand, how they want to relate to those other cultures. And, while we are at it, we need to tell the truth about how Muslims in America live and believe. There is a huge difference between the Middle Eastern Muslim culture and the American Muslim culture. One is rooted and enforced hate, while the other is rooted and practices love, peace and tolerance for other faiths.

I am very much against the Female mutilation that is practiced in many Muslim cultures. Many Muslims have taken their daughters and fled to America in order to protect their daughters from such inhumane practices. The Muslim Women have united and meet in a council every year to discuss Woman's Rights within Muslim countries. Some of these Women have many rights and are almost equal with their Men. Most Women, however, do not have such rights and are instead, treated like property. Many, but not all, are treated no better then slaves. They are slaves to the house they live in. They are not allowed to see the Sun or to go outside and enjoy the sun. They must do whatever their husband commands of them. He does not have to lift a finger inside the house. She is expected to do all the chores inside the house. The male children do not have chores either. It is the daughters who have chores. It is a very Male dominated society. The Male's rule with an iron hand. Vitamin D Deficiency is very common because they aren't allowed to get Sun. This is what American Textbooks are not saying.

We need to start telling the truth and stop the "Lies of Omission" and the Watering down of our textbooks or our Children will not have the facts they need in order to make informed decisions.

N.B. I might rewrite this eventually.